Sunday, 24 April 2016

Nerd Church - What To Do When The Mean Girl Finds Success

Did you ever have that girl (or guy) growing up, who just couldn't stand the sight of you? (And the feeling, let's face it, was mutual.)

I did. Thing is, that girl - that ball of spite who I can't remember ever saying anything nice (and not just to me,) has found herself a degree of success.


Not a huge amount, it's true.

But the local press (who have very little to report usually - all the things that actually happen here are quietly pushed under the rug,) are just pleased as punch.

Should I just be happy for her?

Because honestly, I can't bring myself to be. I do not wish ill on her - God, no! But I can't be happy for her either.

And yes, I'm definitely jealous. I admit it.

She's getting all this attention and I'm here, struggling to make my own way in the world with my blog, my self-employed job, my childhood bedroom, and a side-order of depression and anxiety.

Does that make me a bad person?

I thought there was supposed to be some sort of natural balance...

We're always told when we're kids that if we're nice, good things will happen to and for us. And if we're horrible, then horrible things will happen.

Unless this girl has changed a lot in the few years since I last saw her - and I knew her for well over a decade before that - then, I'm sorry, but she is not a nice person.

So why does the universe seem to be on her side?

So, what to do...?

Well the simple answer is this: nothing.

I need to take a deep breath, and not think about it.

Instead I need to think of what I do have going for me: my wonderful friends and family, and my cats (and my love of reading ofc.)

Hating on her will do me no good. It will just burn me from the inside out.

No, I don't have to be happy for her (I'm always going to think of her as the girl that used to call me fat and mock my accent (I wasn't born in this town - shocker.))

Instead, I'll dismiss her entirely from my mind - her life has no effect on mine. Maybe it did, once, but not now - not for a long time.

I don't have to be happy for her success - but I don't have to care about it either.

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  1. It's always possible that underneath the apparent success, she's a pool of misery and self-loathing :-) People are how they live, and she is what she's done, and that quite probably means she spends her waking hours afraid people will judge her the way she judges others.

    1. Ha, this is true :)

      I'm just not going to let it bother me anymore, she's not worth the icky feelings that come with being irritated about it :)

  2. Ironically, my sister and I were talking about this the other day when it comes to jealousy! I think that the important thing is that she's not bragging personally to you, and if you just shut her out, then you'll forget all about her. You don't need to worry about her and she doesn't need to worry about you!

  3. That has got to be trying on you! I definitely understand the feeling though! I'm living with depression too (and some anxiety), so I get how hard it can be to stop thinking about things like this. It doesn't seem fair. I always think that if someone is genuinely just not a nice person, they're probably not feeling that great regardless of the good things happening in their lives... *shrugs*

    1. Thanks, and yes it can be hard to stop the swirling train of thoughts in your head, can't it? But gifs of Tom Hiddleston (even angry Tom,) def help ;) and of course lovely comments from lovely people (that's you, by the way,) help a bunch :)


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