We're living in a world where the lines between online and offline have become more wibbly than ever before.
So I've been thinking a lot lately about the difference between online and offline life.
(Yes, this post is probably going to meander quite a lot - you've been warned! 😉)
I've been watching Shane Dawson's series with Grav3yard Girl this week - which you should check out on YouTube if you think it's something you'd like btw - and it struck me how she was scared of sharing too much of herself with her followers.
But even the most genuine people in the whole mooniverse have moments of being fake.
I don't mind the odd fake smile or fake laugh, especially if it's to spare someone's feelings; being kind is a good thing.
And some of us - hello fellow people with mental health problems! - need to be a little fake sometimes, if only to give ourselves an extra layer of armour.
If only to convince ourselves, by faking it, that we do believe we're worth it.
But some people online are so fake that they either deny themselves, or believe in their own fakeness. Both of those things are sad, in the end.
Remove Trump's Twitter, and the world will be a better place. #JustSaying.
Online, even on personal profiles, people try to paint their lives a certain way.
Every moment is either the best or the worst ever. Everything's the scariest, the funniest, the saddest, the happiest - everything is in extremes. Like your whole life is a highlight reel.
The people who terrify me though are those who become someone else entirely online -
not in a catfishing way, but that's f**king scary too!
- people who present themselves so differently to their reality that they actually bend the truth.
I also totally understand that people don't always wanna spread their lives across the world - I use a blogging name for Iesu's sake, I get it.
There are many, many, reasons why I use a pseudonym online - because I can't have just one reason to do anything. (I'm incapable of holding only one opinion at a time. Or am I? 😉)
But one of the main reasons was that it gave me the freedom to share parts of myself with you, my dearest nerdlets, to be vulnerable in a way that wouldn't be possible for me if everyone knew my real name.
Because I know what I say here won't come back on my family, my business, my private life, I feel safe enough to be open and honest and frank (and hopefully genuine, too, but I'll leave you to be the judge of that!)
And there's something powerful in that level of openness, my dearest nerdlets. It says, f**k it, I'm not ashamed of who I am! XD
I think that people should totally be allowed to keep parts of their lives offline - but not to the extent that it prevents you from being genuine in your interactions.
(Again, I'm hoping I manage to pull off the whole genuine thing! ...This is me being genuinely self-conscious about my blogging! 😅 Lol.)
There are people, though, who I know IRL. And when I see certain individuals online... they've clearly edited the truth.
I don't know, maybe they're hiding the truth from themselves too, but I know the entirety of the situation, and saying 'this has been such a difficult time in my life' when you are the one who made it difficult and were acting shady... 👀
I'm really holding myself back here in case, by some quirk of fate, that person is reading and recognises themselves - which if I went into more detail they definitely would - and that might cause difficulty for family members of mine.
See? Sometimes you have to hold sh** back online!
As long as you're being honest about your reasons for doing so -
and trust me, I am sorely tempted to go into more detail about certain people, who doesn't love a rant? but I need to be responsible here (argh! so annoying!)
- then it's perfectly ok to hold things back.
(Also, you don't have to get involved in every conversation, especially if you don't feel you know enough about a topic - it's ok not to know stuff!)
The short version:
- everyone feels a little insecure sometimes
- it's ok to hold back online, as long as you understand your own reasons, and they don't interfere with you being who you are
- some people online seem lovely but IRL there's... more of a story there
- be as genuine as you can online - it's fairer to the people you talk to, and better for you, let's face it